Mad person (facing up to rejects)

hello.. today is 27 September
today i got tuition then remedial finished at 3.50 and i had tuition at 4!!
i was rushing and rushing and i guess the passer bys must have said i was mad cos i walk like so fast la... haha what to do don wanna be late marhs.. then i reached home at 4.03
luckily tuition teacher not here yet.. *phew* was i tired....
todays remedial was rather funny cos of stanley.. he said some funny things.. heehee
two days away from first paper.. quite scared though for my science.. im afraid that i cant go to the class i wanna go to cos my science is not really that good. but i must GAMBATTE... heehee
hmmm.. i never drank bubble today the last time i drank was Friday.. then on Sunday i ate the pearls hahaa i feel like im addicted to it... heehee XP
erm i din get chosen to dance for assembly but it was somehow good and somehow bad
good.. i get to study more.. need not stay back...
bad.. i couldn't perform again.. hais
When they danced on tuesday which was yesterday the yesterday... i was envious of them
every single time i have to see them perform while i just sat there watching them perform....
i feel so inferior sometimes. wondering why i din get picked at least they an explain to me why i cant get picked so that i can improve but for the chinese new year dance they din give me a reason.. someone told me its because i din have a handphone and they could not contact me thats why i wasnt picked but what the heck its OVER already......
they din choose me for chinese new year dance, teachers' day dance and now this!! Haiss i just wonder why its like this mb i may show a strong side of me but i actually wanted to perform, maybe i just cant dance. i dont meet their standards? i dono.. but then i cant force the person to choose me right? sometimes i just have to face up to rejects...
haiss... *SAD* being rejected this time was not so bad the worst was chinese new year i was the only one that was not chosen... ya THE ONLY ONE!!! *SICKENING* i din cry but for the teachers' day i thought i would be selected but i wasnt.. so i went home and started crying so my dad said.. dont cry, work harder no use crying over such things... mom asked me not to care while my sister told me to stop crying ( she was rather angry though cos they din pick me again)
i cooled down then i started doing my work.. tell me who can handle rejects? huh??huh?
but now im fine i guess trying to work hard for SYF.
yups thats all for now haha byebye!!!